fightingthecage | In a coat he borrowed from James Dean

I'm in the kind of mood where I want to create something beautiful. But can't and therefore, won't.

Item the second: Here's something that has been vaguely nagging at me to be posted for a while and while I'm feeling mopey, I might as well bore on about it.

I lose at fandom. I only have one, really, and I lose at it as well as fandom in general. It doesn't bother me exactly, except that I read other people's journals and they squee over the latest episodes/releases/pictures of whatever, and dissect parts of books and look forward to sequels etc and I just...don't.

To clarify - 24 is the only one I'm involved with and that's because I love the show and write fanfic for it. I don't much, anymore, and once I've finished the two fics I have on the go, I probably won't do any more. But even though I love it - I can't talk about it endlessly and couldn't even when I was more into it than I am now. I wouldn't miss an episode, but I tend to watch and just go 'cool!' and then wait for the next one. I don't care whether the writers are crap or who directed what and who's being cast for whatever role etc etc. I just want to watch and enjoy and then move on.

This isn't really what I'm getting at. It's just that, in general, everyone seems invested in something. Anime (I'm not even sure what that is), comics (they give me a headache), TV shows (I watch so little TV it's laughable) movies (haven't been to the cinema in over a year), books (I read a lot but only for me, I don't tend to be in a fandom to do with them) or something. And I know that most people that have friended my journal did so because of 24 initially, and later on, Milliways. So I guess I feel I should have more to say about fannish sort of things, but I just don't. I'm a member of various comms to do with 24 and Good Omens, and tend to read just about nothing that's posted. I kind of want to come across something to fall in love with again, but nothing springs to mind. Queer as Folk is awesome, but it's finished now - same for The West Wing.

OK, so I don't know what the point of this post is. I suppose it's just to point out that - if you friended me in the hope that I ws going to be churning out heaps of interesting insights on 24, or writing loads of new fic, you're going to be disappointed. I probably will write some new things, but they'll all go up on

24_fanfic anyway. Same for any more GO fic, that'll go up in the relevant comms also.

Right. Now I'm going to go and...do something else. *(but uses obscure fannish icon anyway, just to be contrary)*