I win at laid back

[fightingthecage]

...although I think the truth is probably that I win at stupid. You see, I have an exam tomorrow afternoon. Pretty damn important one! I specifically asked to be put in for it early because I wanted one out of the way before the summer. So I should be making an effort, yes?

No. I haven't opened a textbook since two weeks before Christmas. I had this evening completely free and I just can't do it. I can't bring myself to open a book.

This is becoming a serious problem, I can't deny it anymore. All I can think about tomorrow is, 'shit, I have to think up another excuse as to why I haven't got my coursework to hand in.' And I'll probably just do what I've been doing for the last three weeks - not turn up, think up a lame excuse and instead of using the skive!time to catch up with work, just get further behind.

Le sigh. The exam - and the English one on Thurdsay - isn't such a big deal because I can do them in the summer with the rest of my class. But my inability to care about them is certainly an issue. How much longer can someone put off passing exams? I fucking want to go to Uni but...oh fuck this, I don't know. I'm so sick of myself its not even funny.

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[ceitfianna]

*snugs*

I felt that way with a lot of my master's thesis, which I ended up not finishing. Take a deep breath and think about why you're doing what you're doing and what makes you happy.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Thing is, I know I'll feel 100% better when I'm back in class and getting on with it. I do enjoy learning. I just can't seem to get out of this coursework-induced rut and it sucks. And is my own fault so I'll stop whinging now, heh.

You're right, there is a reason I'm doing this. Just got to get on with it. :)

[ceitfianna]

They happen at times, take it in small steps, find the stuff you love and small steps. I know you can do it.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I will try. :)

[moofoot.livejournal.com]

I can't sit here and tell you to open your books and study (because I can't be a hypocrite, given that I dropped out of college entirely after like...two weeks) so I'm not going to do that.

Just wanted to let you know that I still think you're awesome, regardless of what you think of yourself.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Heh, thanks. I can assure you that, at the moment, I'm not. On so many levels. But I have hope that I will be again! (some comic book hero should say that one time. I'd laugh).

Anyway, thank you. I will stop with the emo and write something interesting in my journal once of these days, I promise. :)

[fogg8.livejournal.com]

Do it, do it, do it!

C'mon, I've got to write my dissertation still, we can both suck it up and get it done together!

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Cool! You have...what, 10,000 words to write? 15,000? I have about 1,500 left of my coursework so...you get started and I'll catch you up, 'k? (Guarentee you'll finish before me)

[fogg8.livejournal.com]

Yeah, 10 000, I an get away with doing 8000 though. LOL, I really doubt I'll finish before you. But we'll still get it done!

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

When's yours due? Mine was due - draft at least - on Dec 3rd. I know it really doesn't have to be finished til about April or something but the teacher wants it and I feel like I need to get it in. ARGH I HATE COURSEWORK! I am going to suck at Uni because I just cant work to long deadlines. If a deadline isn't within a wekk or two of the work being set, it just doesn't exist.

[fogg8.livejournal.com]

Deadline is this Thursday, but really, I've done 500 words...and lets me honest, they're all shit, so I've done 0 words. Eh.

Argh, it's quite annoying. If you like the unit, it's fine because you will yourself to do the work, but most of the time, it['s just shit. We've been given our final 2 units, and our deadline is May 15th. So I don't have to be in class at all till my hand-in date. Rubbish.

[ashen_key]

Ooooooooooooooh, I get like that. I seriously do. Sadly, the only thing to do is grit your teeth and do it. Which...somewhat sucks as advice, I know, but...*gestures*

I find mentally repeating the following quote somewhat helpful, though, in a prod to get myself to do something: Procrastination is like masturbation; fun while it lasts, but in the end you've just fucked yourself.

Those moods do seriously suck, though, and it's like drawing nails over blackboards to do anything.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

It's the advice I keep giving myself so it's clearly the right stuff! Plus, its also the only option.

I can see you know exactly what I mean though. It does suck beyond practically anything but on the good side, it's such a relief when you finally pull your finger out and get it done, right? I have woken up this morning - three hours before the exam - with some motivation to revise, so I will do that now. And if I fuck it all up, eh. Resits in the summer.

[ashen_key]

It does suck beyond practically anything but on the good side, it's such a relief when you finally pull your finger out and get it done, right?

Oh, god, yes. And then you wonder what the hell the problem was. And then do it all again later. *rolls eyes at self*

And hopefully it'll go okay! Or, did go.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Exactly! It seems to be a lesson impossible to learn. Perhaps I should memory this entry to re-read next time I do stuff like this.

And it went fabulously, thanks! I got a paper where I knew the answers even if I hadn't read through my notes this morning. Even had to ask for extra paper to finish it off. Am well chuffed. :)

[ashen_key]

It can't hurt!

Oh, I am glad! :D!