My optimism, it never fails me.

[fightingthecage]

Coursework - still not so much as even started. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! My history teacher isn't really expecting me in next week - I said I'd try to get in to the lesson on Tuesday but I know I wont bother. This give me about ten days to do it so meh.

All my teachers have been fantastic, to be fair. They're all, 'Just prep for your interview, dont worry about anything else!' and I'm all 'SQUEEE!' There's not a massive amount of prep I can do but I can't seem to focus on any other work at the moment anyway, so it's nice that they're being so cool.

Btw, CAN WE SAY MASSIVELY NERVOUS?! Yes we can. But also completely excited. :D!

I need to sort my house out. There is laundry etc to do and I still need to put a few boxes away from when I moved in. Problem is, every time I get a free day where I could do all this stuff, I tend to just sit on my arse. That is a part of my personality I really can't stand. Also, I miss the gym liek whoa...and yet still can't motivate myself to get back into it. And right now, I don't care! I can't even think about Christmas. It's like nothing exists until next week is over with.

Man, I'd better not fuck this up. I keep telling myself that it wont be the end of the world if I don't get in and it really is true - nothing changes the fact that going to Lancaster Uni would be very convenient and it's got the highest mark possiblefor teaching History. It is a good University. But I can't deny that the disappointment if I fail to get into Oxford will be pretty crushing. Lifelong dream gone forever and all that. There is also the fact that I am awful at interviews. But! At the moment I have hope and am looking forward to it SO MUCH, I'm just going to enjoy it. :)

...I promise I will shut up about this by next weekend, mmkay? Mmmkay.