This could have been the worst day of my life

[fightingthecage]

And I'm not even joking. Luckily, it is not. But I'm still posting becaue the thoughts of 'Oh my God, what if...' won't leave me alone.

Basically, Evie fell off her changing table this morning. And she's fine! Perfectly fine. But in that spilt-second between her planting her feet and shoving herself backwards, to the scream that followed...I honestly don't think I've ever been as scared in my life.

The table is about four feet high. She hit her nappy bin on the way down which I guess is a good thing, as it broke the fall. She was a twisted little heap on the floor (I feel sick remembering it) but seems to have come through with nothing more than a red mark on her forehead. I tried to take her to the doctor seeing as she did hit her head but the surgery was closed for the bank holiday - because she seems so utterly normal, I think it's alright not to take her to A&E. A couple of minutes of screaming after it happened and then she was back to normal again. Appetite's fine, not overly sleepy, no prolonged crying. So she's OK. Fine fine fine.

But fucking hell, what if she'd broken her neck or knocked herself out or broken an arm/leg/skull/whatever? What if she'd died? I can't stop thinking about it. She's having a nap now and I can't stop watching her to make sure she's still breathing.

Having a kid is scary, yo.

Comments

[mulefa.livejournal.com]

Glad she's ok - very very scary - one of my sons managed to rock his car seat enough to dislodge it from where I'd just put it - on a friend's worktop. I was right next to it but the seat - with him strapped in - slipped off the edge. The seat demonstrated its safety features since its sides were raised enough to avoid baby making contact with floor but - like you - I was left with 'what might have been' feelings for ages (20 years in fact! LOL)

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Omg, 20 years? *cries* How awful - thank God your son was OK though! But the whole 'what if' thing is a total nightmare. I keep hearing the sound of her hitting the floor...ugh no, I can't think about it. It's too horrid.