I was tired of January, tired of June...I felt a change a-comin'...

[fightingthecage]

I really feel like I should be doing something more productive, not just sitting around reading and playing backgammon on the internet. I mean, I should clean things and take the pram thing out of my car. And rearrange the last few boxes in the flat so that there's room to set up the mattress my mother will be sleeping on after Scribble shows up. And possibly get that mattress out from under my bed because leaving until I'm actually in labour might not be the smartest move. Also, I should pack my bag for the hospital, given that this baby is due in twelve days time.

Except that, if I pack things and get the last few bits ready then it'll be real. Y'know? And while I'm so looking forward to not being pregnant anymore, it doesn't change the fact that as soon as I'm not...I'll have a child. And, y'know, be bound to it for the next eighteen years of my life. Given that I've never been able to commit to a single thing/person/job before in my life, this is indeed a scary prospect.

...not as scary as my mother fussing over me for two weeks after he/she arrives but pretty scary nonetheless.

So! I shall watch the rest of S5 Queer as Folk today I think. And read more of The Bourne Ultimatum (the overuse of italics still annoys me but the story is awesome enough for me to overlook it. Also, I too overuse italics so I'm not really in a position to judge) and then watch the rugby later on (go Ireland!) and then possibly a movie before trying, and failing, to sleep properly. Sounds like a plan. A plan born from all kinds of denial but I can live with that.

Comments

[shadowofdoubt.livejournal.com]

Pack that bag, woman, because the last thing you want is to be sitting in a hospital bed for hours with nothing to read. O_o

And maybe I'm weird and living vicariously, but I'm so looking forward to the "Scribble's here!" post. Have you come up with a definite name yet?

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Ugh, that would suck. Even worse would be the lack of clothes for the baby, clothes to wear while in labour, after labour, leaving the hospital, money for phones, camera, toiletries...honestly, you wouldn't believe the amount of things you're supposed to take with you.

Aww, you're sweet. I'm looking forward to being able to post his/her arrival too! It will be with a photo (unless the child is too ugly to be committed to camera)! As for names...pretty sure it'll be Timothy if its a boy. Girls...gah. Dunno. There are still about six that I like. I think I'll end up putting a poll on my journal and letting y'all decide for me. :)

[shadowofdoubt.livejournal.com]

. . . clothes to wear while in labor? Don't they give you a hospital gown or something for that? Me, I'd be going, "I'll wear . . . the Def Leppard tank top. Yep, that's all."

*snicker* I'm sure Scribble will be beautiful. Possibly a slight resemblance to an eggplant, but all babies look that way at first. Although Ricky actually looked like Bill Clinton. Go figure.

*pout* I still vote for Ripley! XD

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

*nodnod* A T-shirt or nightshirt, apparantly. So I'm all...riiight. I'll pick something that I don't care that I'll never be able to wear again then. Because, ew. Mess.

Heh, I suppose an eggplant would be OK. I'm predicting a blotchy, speckled little thing. Or some humungous bloated blob with masses of hair. Or...I dont know. I fear the worst, though I don't really know why. (Bill Clinton? Wtf? Is there something your mom needs to confess?)

[shadowofdoubt.livejournal.com]

I hope it doesn't have masses of hair. Because that just looks scary and wrong on babies. Maybe a little tuft or something that you can tie a bow around, that would be cute. XD

And I don't even know what happened with Ricky. Ma didn't sleep with Clinton, that's for sure. And yet Ricky emerged with that stoic expression and white dandruffy stuff all over his head. At least he's improved, and now he looks like an elephant-eared Scot.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Exactly! You can really see the way humans descended from the apes in babies like that. Rest assured, if Scribble comes out looking like a small chimp, he/she will only be photographed while wearing a hat (I have such a cute one all ready and waiting!).

...an elephant-eared Scot? Well, y'know, that look is often adorably cute on little boys. He may cringe when he looks back on photos of his youth though.

[shadowofdoubt.livejournal.com]

*pokes your belly* Come on, kid, strangers on the internet want to see what you look like. XD Oh, and did you decide you didn't want to know the gender or is the squirt still keeping it from you?

Yeah, the poor kid has some unfortunate ears. And he got his red hair and freckles from my grandmother, so overall the look can be mildly startling, especially right after a haircut. O_o I'm surprised he hasn't been teased about it, but I'm sure the kids'll get around to it eventually. I'd tease him myself if I weren't worried I'd damage his delicate ego beyond repair.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Scribble: *squirms back at you*

I totally wanted to know what the gender is! Scribble had other ideas. He/she was too big on the last scan; less room inside = legs all wrapped around itself and they couldn't tell. I was so frustrated.

*snicker* Poor kid, with that in store for him. Perhaps you should tease him a little now, to prepare him for the rigours of high school etc. Although he may well have grown into his ears by then.

[shadowofdoubt.livejournal.com]

*petpet* At least you'll know soon. Unless the doctors can't figure it out and then that'll be a whole new can of worms. XD

I don't know, Ricky really is kind of a sensitive kid, LOL. Like, I don't think the poor kid knows he has big ears. And you always kind of remember the asshole who first brought whatever particular unavoidable flaw to your attention, you know? I don't want him to think about his big sister as that fucking ass who first told him he had funny ears. XD

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Yep, only a couple of weeks to go! Or three, if he/she is late. Which will probably happen as the lack of co-operation on the scans already proves that this is an awkward child. :D

And that's a good point actually. It always sounds like he totally loves you to pieces and it wouldn't be nice to crush him. Instead, you can be the awesome big sister that cheers him up the first day he comes home upset after being teased. Much better!

[shellebelle93.livejournal.com]

omg, take advantage of the mom-ness the first few weeks!

It'll give you a good chance to get you and the bebbe off to a good start with some sort of schedule--which will change each month anyway, but omg sleep is needed!

Also, don't be surprised if you *can't* sleep--I was hypervigilant and I could hear my son stir from all the way across the apartment. Now you know where the super-mom hearing comes from!

But yes, pack the bag, do all the stuff you need to do and find a couple of good books. if you can concentrate on reading at all. ;) *hugs* you'll be fine.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

I have a feeling she'll be very good to have around, actually. Just annoying too, because she used to be a midwife and still talks to me as though I have the common sense of a four-year-old, saying things like, 'Once you have a baby, you can't leave it alone you know!' as if I would. She very much thinks that she knows best, especially with things like this!

But! As you say, it will be nice to have someone around to help. And its very good of her to do it so I'm not really complaining. Just apprehensive.

*hugs* Thanks. I have promised myself to get all the necessary things completed this weekend. Monday, I'll hit the bookstore. :)