fightingthecage | Stick it. STICK IT!

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Tell me a secret.

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From: (Anonymous)

a long time ago, i had a crush on you.

maybe i still do.

i write letters and emails to people who've left me over the years, telling them what i think and what i want and how much i miss them, but i'll always misspell the email address or forget to put the street name when i send them.

From: (Anonymous)

I don't think that you're ever going to amount to shit in life, and it kind of saddens me. Because, you're smart and lively and funny and sweet, but you think you're about fifty times cooler than you are, and people like you are two-a-penny.

Oh, and also, you wanna get into a good uni? Doing fuck-all and barely attending is not going to get you there, no matter how clever you think you are. I kind of hope you get kicked out of college, because if you can't be assed to be there, then why should they keep teaching you?

I know this sounds harsh, and I do like you a lot, but, Jesus. I want to reach through my monitor and shake you sometimes. You are so. Annoying.

From: (Anonymous)

Rereading this: it's too harsh. You are, truly, awesome, and I'm glad to have met you. I'm really sorry if the above upsets you unduly.

Just. I like you, and I want you to do well. It frustrates me.

From: (Anonymous)

I fail at threading.

From: (Anonymous)

Reading your journal is like looking at a car wreck. It appals me that someone can get to your age and be so utterly lacking in self-awareness and even a slither of self-discipline. You come across as selfish, lazy, bratty, supremely self-absorbed and good for little else other than leaching money off other people. Your lack of consideration for anyone other than yourself is the most striking aspect of your writing.

The tales of constantly cutting class, never turning in work cos you're too busy pissing around, yet getting self-righteously uppity when you're justifiably pulled up about it aren't funny or endearing – they’re pathetic. It's compulsive reading, but only through splayed fingers.

If you're half as clever as you seem to think you are, why don't you put your money where your mouth is? Go into class, make an effort, do the work on time. Do something worthwhile for once.

From:

fightingthecage.livejournal.com

Dude! I have no idea who you are but I think I love you. Marry me?

And no, I'm not kidding. :D

Seriously - you're not wrong. I'm an asshat most of the time. If my journal comes across like I'm not aware of that - believe me, I am. I am as smart as I say I am and I'm not in the least bit ashamed to admit it (though I acknowledge that its lucky genes rather than anything I've earned) - so in that regard, I disagree with your comment on my self-awareness. I know exactly how much of a loser I am and one of the things that pisses me off the most is my inability to care about it.

So, you're right. And you don't lose at threading at all. There's nothing wrong with telling the truth and I thank you for it. I just can't see anything changing at the moment because I am, So. Fucking. Bored, with life as it stands right now. Sorry about that. ;)

From:

fightingthecage.livejournal.com

Who are you? Chances are I've had a crush on you right back. And my email address is in my profile, don't be shy! :D

From:

fightingthecage.livejournal.com

Oh, and also?

why don't you put your money where your mouth is? Go into class, make an effort, do the work on time. Do something worthwhile for once.

We probably have different ideas on what is worthwhile. And I want so badly to think that qualifications and a degree are worthwhile things. I'm just not seeing it right now and haven't for a long time. But that's what society expects, right? So, I'm trying. Not very hard, I admit, but trying all the same. There has to be something interesting to do in life.

From: (Anonymous)

In blank-point opposition to the asshole who's decided to use this meme as an excuse to flame you, I think you're one of the least stupid people I've ever known. As in, ever. Online or off. I'm not sure that's actually a secret but I haven't talked to you in a while so probably it hasn't been reinforced recently.

My secret is that I occasionally forget what gender you are. I am just that mentally swiss-cheesed.

Although, I occasionally forget that about myself, too. XD

From:

fightingthecage.livejournal.com

LMAO! Dude, I want to marry you as well!

The person above is not an asshole. The person above is mostly right. And I'm fine with that because wouldn't the world be a boring place if we were all awesome in the same ways? I think everyone on my flist - and most people off - are awesome, in different ways. I can be incredibly stupid. But never unintelligent.

Also, I don't blame you for forgetting what gender I am. Half the time I want to be a bloke anyway. I'd be far happier and would make a very good man. And then I get a crush on a dude and feel like a woman again, so heigh ho. It's allgood, keeps things interesting. :D

From: (Anonymous)

No Write, you shouldn't go into class and finish your A Levels and get a degree because *society* expects it or thinks its worthwhile. You should do it because for once in your shiftless, feckless life, YOU NEED TO FINISH WHAT YOU'VE STARTED. Don't think about it, don't analyse it, don't make any more bullshit excuses for yourself about societal expectations, stop caring about the fact that you don't care. Don't think about the degree afterwards - just do this ONE thing. If you don't want to HE afterwards - and with the state of the graduate job market these days, some would say that's wise choice - then DON'T. Get those A Levels, even if the classes and the work bores the crap out of you and you wonder every day why you're there.

You could be elbow deep in grimy water in hotel kitchens for the rest for your life and that wouldn't be any more or less "worthwhile" than someone with a degree and a £40k a year job. "Worthwhile" is taking your life and actually DOING something with it, shaping it in some way - whether that be going to uni, getting a job sweeping the streets, or going to live on on kabbutz in Israel.

When I read your entries, all I see is a completely squandered life and that saddens me. I know you say that you are well aware of what I've said, but I wonder whether that is *really* true, or whether the unrelenting bravado is just another symptom of your overarching conceit and fear.

From:

fightingthecage.livejournal.com

I'm writing a post in response to this as we speak. And its honest, whether or not anyone believes it. That doesn't matter - but I really would like you to believe that I appreciate what you've said. I mean it.

From: (Anonymous)

And now I feel like a dork because my secret is not about you...but here goes nothing.

There's a guy I had a crush on for the better part of a year. He's a good friend of mine and he was seeing someone at the time, so I never said anything. Then, because of Long Boring Story, I didn't get to see much of him last year and figured I was settled in the 'we're just friends groove.'

But lately I've been getting to hang out with him a lot more and last night I got a vibe that he might know how I feel/felt, or maybe that he's interested in me or some combination of both. And I can't figure out how much of this is just speculation in my head and how much is an honest 'signal' or some crap.

I'm so confused.

I suck at getting over people.

From: (Anonymous)

um...oh god, no, i don't think you've had a crush on me. ever. considering we've not known each other for very long. and i can't help but be shy.

oh noes.

now i want to email you.

fuck.

From:

fightingthecage.livejournal.com

Some people are worth not getting over! And this sort of thing is always confusing, fo' real.

In my experience, it's best to trust your instinct in these situations. And if your instinct is picking up a vibe, it's probably there. He may not be aware he's given it off though, so I wouldn't advise leaping in with both feet right away. Give it a bit of time, see if its a recurring feeling and if it is, say something. Life's too short not to.

Uh...I know you weren't asking for advice there, but sorry, you got it anyway.