All that I ever was, is there in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

[fightingthecage]

Looking at these gorgeous photos made me sad. Maybe sad isn't the right word. Wistful? It would have been nice to have been that happy when I was pregnant. And I won't lie, it would have been nice to have looked that good.

I totally edited that bit there without even realising it. I had origninally intended to say, 'It would have been nice to be have been able to be that happy when I was pregnant'. Then I told myself to shut up, because everyone can control their own happiness if they want to, right? Etc etc, blah blah.

But really, no. In that situation, no. I'm sure other people reading this (if people read this) can think of times when their happiness has been out of their own control - and really, I think that's OK. It may not be sensible to let others have that much influence on your emotions but you know what? If they do, then it shows you care. And that's OK. It's really OK. We may get hurt but there's nothing wrong with letting someone else have part of you, even if only for a while. It's what we're made for.

And I'm not sad now. I've had a wonderful day and the bad time is behind me and I wouldn't change Evie and Steve for anything.

/pointless post.

Comments

[gethenian.livejournal.com]

Those are FASCINATING.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Aren't they? I was really struck by the first one in particular. That smile! Awesome. :)

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

And by 'first' I meant 'second'.

[gethenian.livejournal.com]

I adore the second one. I tried to make an icon of it but it doesn't work very well.