Hit the floor and crawl to daddy

[fightingthecage]

Been tagged for a meme by innerbrat

Explain your Live Journal name and its meaning.

Well, the one I originally wanted was writetolive, as I've been using that as a pen name to write fanfic for about eighteen months now - six months when I started on LJ. But it wasn't available, so I just sat and thought about how I felt about life in general. It took about half a minute to hit on this name.

Basically, since I was twelve or so, the notion of living the life everyone around me expected me to live just made me sick (and still does). The whole, 'finish school, go to Uni, get a good job and a mortgage and husband and kids' thing that everyone around me was planning on doing, is my idea of hell. To be fair to my mother, she's never pushed for the husband and kids part, just the Uni and good job. But from her, and in school - because I was always smart and had always been told I was - there were great expectations of me. I was quite happy with the idea of it for a while until I realised that no, actually, I hated school with a vehement passion because it was just so pedestrian, the teachers were narrow-minded and disliked pupils that could think for themselves and most of the other kids were boring as hell.

So, cue fightback. Which is nothing unusual, quite a few kids rebel. Only, most seem to grow out of it and I never have and never want to. I was a serious and depressed and bored teenager, so now I'm quite happy being a laid-back and easygoing twenty-something, much to the frustration of most people around me. I'm not someone that does things differently for the sake of it, or to make a point, or take a stand or any of that. That's just stupid and mindlessly immature. I just do whatever I want, try not to hurt friends and family with it, and don't care about other people's opinions of me. I think that society - by necessity really, as there has to be order and organisation for civilisation to function - conditions people to live in a fairly mundane and regimented way. I don't like that, hence, fightingthecage.

I'm not special, or different. But I am me. It's just about the only thing I think is worth hanging on to in life. Everything else is pretty easy to let go of.

There ya go, IB. Probably TMI but I'm feeling verbose today evidently.

In other news - I am sunburnt to hell and it hurts and I love it. Summer's here people, and the World Cup starts in three days! WOOOOOOT! *excited*