This could have been the worst day of my life

[fightingthecage]

And I'm not even joking. Luckily, it is not. But I'm still posting becaue the thoughts of 'Oh my God, what if...' won't leave me alone.

Basically, Evie fell off her changing table this morning. And she's fine! Perfectly fine. But in that spilt-second between her planting her feet and shoving herself backwards, to the scream that followed...I honestly don't think I've ever been as scared in my life.

The table is about four feet high. She hit her nappy bin on the way down which I guess is a good thing, as it broke the fall. She was a twisted little heap on the floor (I feel sick remembering it) but seems to have come through with nothing more than a red mark on her forehead. I tried to take her to the doctor seeing as she did hit her head but the surgery was closed for the bank holiday - because she seems so utterly normal, I think it's alright not to take her to A&E. A couple of minutes of screaming after it happened and then she was back to normal again. Appetite's fine, not overly sleepy, no prolonged crying. So she's OK. Fine fine fine.

But fucking hell, what if she'd broken her neck or knocked herself out or broken an arm/leg/skull/whatever? What if she'd died? I can't stop thinking about it. She's having a nap now and I can't stop watching her to make sure she's still breathing.

Having a kid is scary, yo.

Comments

[nepheliad.livejournal.com]

I feel really really awful saying this! But I feel as if you need to be warned anyway, if you do go to a doctor about it: over here in the States we're trained in allied health to take any story that involves an infant falling off a table/out of a crib/things involving those sorts of falls with a grain of salt, as they're often excuses for abuse. Seeing as how it isn't abuse the pattern of injury will prove that but if anyone treats you in a kind of icy manner that's probably why.

Some people overreact and want to call everyone an abuser. (I study with one of 'em.)

I'm glad she's okay, though! I mean, of course – I talk super bad – yeah. Kids fall, kids fall a lot and they don't always notice until someone else gets upset.

So long as the soft spot isn't swollen or sunken any it should be fine in my non-pediatric opinion (I do know trauma, though, I know trauma good) and if it is a doctor is your friend.

[fightingthecage.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the warning - I hadn't considered that might happen! Wouldn't let it put me off taking her obviously, but she really does seem fine so I think I don't have to take her to hospital.

Her head's fine, I've checked exhaustively. That's reassuring to know though, thank you! The mark on her forehead isn't even swollen and there are no bumps or odd bits on the rest of her head. I feel better for you saying that though, a medical opinion is always good. :)