fightingthecage: (Angus - Rocking It)

Procrastinating on essay. And on getting breakfast, for no reason I can think of. So!

Choose a number and ask me…

01. My sexual orientation.
02. What I'm really bad at.
03. The one person whose arms I'd like to be in.
04. My best first date.
05. A description of my self-esteem.
06. Who my best friends are.
07. My favorite book.
08. Biggest turn-offs.
09. A description of my best friend.
10. My favorite animal.
11. Someone I miss.
12. The reason behind my last break-up.
13. What I did yesterday.
14. My greatest achievements.
15. My favorite songs right now.
16. A description of my last kiss.
17. What I find attractive.
18. All of the pets I've ever owned.
19. My favorite ice cream flavor.
20. The one place I wish I was right now.
21. The most cruel thing anyone has ever said to me.
22. All of the places I've lived.
23. Qualities that make me more likely to love a person.
24. My future plans.
25. One of my internal conflicts.
26. What I'm doing tomorrow.
27. My life's aspirations.
28. My most embarrassing moment.
29. Two of my insecurities.
30. What I would do if I won the lottery.
31. What I love most about myself.
32. My biggest pet peeves.
33. What musical artists I've seen live.
34. How many kids I would like to have.
35. My idea of a perfect date.
36. What I'm really excellent at.
37. My most traumatic experience.
38. Where I would like to live.
39. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me.
40. Whether I like where I live now.
41. What I can hear right now.
42. My relationship with my siblings.
43. What's currently worrying me the most.
44. Something I've repeatedly wished for.
45. My relationship with my parents.
46. What I dislike most about myself.
fightingthecage: (Disco Darcy)

Yes. Yes it is. For lo, I am done with exams! \o/!

And for the most part, I think they went very well. Which is kind of a miracle seeing as the day before the first three, I hadn't learnt anything about the topics of two of them, let alone started revision. This is what skiving massive amounts of class - and then not catching up on the missed work - gets you...frantic cramming until five in the morning and then a full day of exams after ninety minutes sleep. But! At least two of them went very well, and the other was solid enough.

Thing is, I don't learn from my mistakes. It's a thing. So when faced with an unexpected two days off work at the end of last week, did I teach myself all the work I'd missed in preperation for the exams this week? Did I fuck. And yet, they went well also. Guess I knew more than I thought I did.

So I think I've done enough to get the three A's I went back to college for in the first place. I won't be positive until I see the results in writing (eight weeks, ugh!) but given that I only need C's on all these papers to get A's overall anyway, I think I'm OK.

Which leaves me with a problem. Because since Oxford told me to get fucked, I've been thinking...weelll, I always do better when I know what to expect in a situation so the thing to do here is start at Lancaster in October, apply to Oxford again and if I get accepted this time, leave Lancaster at Christmas, work for nine months and then go to where I really want to be the year after. Sound, right? Except I got a letter from the Student Loans Company two days ago telling me that they aren't paying my tuition fees for the first two years of study. Which, y'know, D:. Because I can't really afford it - they'll give me a maintenence loan which isn't inconsiderable (I think, they didn't name a figure) but I'll have to use it to pay the £3000 of tuition.

So, for a day there I was like...shit, no Uni. I can't afford it. Maybe I'll defer for a year, get a proper job and save up. And maybe that is what I'll do. Or maybe I' for the first term at Lancaster, see whether I get into Oxford and if I do, leave, get a job etc like I planned. I mean, I'll only be £1000 out of pocket if I do that. And if I don't get into Oxford, I'll just stay at Lancaster and I won't have wasted a year by defering entry. When I think about putting it off for another year, I kind of feel sick.

Or I could just go to Lancaster. Wouldn't have to think about travel, Evie would be near Steve, much cheaper in the long run...hmmm. But. It's not Oxford. Oxford is the reason I went back to college in the first place. I think I need to give it another shot.

But anyway. EXAMS DONE FUCK YEAH! I can lounge about all evening and not feel guilty! I have no revision! I have thrown every scrap of college work from the last three years into the recycling bin! It feels great. I have nothing to do this summer but work three days a week and chill with my baby. Fuckin' A.

Of course, I'm looking at getting a proper job because ugh, new chef at work now that Head Chef Sam has left and he threatened me with disciplinary action on my second day working under him. So I can see this relationship is going to go really well. Not to mention, a trained monkey could do my job and probably with more enthusiasm than me. I mean, who gives a fuck about food anyway, really? Being a chef is a stupid job.

Right. I'ma celebrate my fucking awesome exam today by chilling out, maybe throwing my new pup inna bar and having a beer and a J. SUMMER IS HERE PEOPLE, FUCK YEAH!

ETA: Oh yeah, one other thing. An anonymous person told me on here about two and a half years ago that I needed to stop pissing around and finish something for once in my life. And they were right. So there you go, anonymous person - college. Done.
fightingthecage: (Cookies)

I. I have two Dreamwidth invites if anyone wants one.

II. I feel a bit rubbish this evening. Just some random emo that I was going to post about but now have decided not to because I'll be over it by tomorrow anyway. Instead, I shall watch a movie (how have I not watched Iron Man despite having owned it for two weeks now?) or...wait, no Ashes to Ashes is on in half an hour. I shall watch that, then I shall watch a movie. Probably.

III. I need to keep reminding myself that getting loads of sleep might feel good at the time but is a bad thing really because I just feel like crap later. Whereas five hours a night might feel bad when it comes time to get up, but at least I buzz through the day on an adrenaline high and feel great.

IV. I wish my exercise bike would show up. I ordered it five weeks ago - I would have to order the one that was out of stock. Just another week though so I guess I can deal. Well, I have to. But I want it now, damnit!

V. Blah. I shall eat the chocolate brownies that I nicked from work because they weren't good enough to sell and veg. Because that will make me feel better. *eyeroll at self*
fightingthecage: (Hamlet - O rly?)

Huh. I've just discovered that the Shire, from The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings was based on the area I grew up. Weird.

...and that Horlicks was invented there too. Three miles from my childhood home.

I wonder which of these two things are greater? Hmm. Well, I don't like Horlicks and love The Hobbit, so I suppose the answer is easy, really. But Horlicks fans may disagree!

And omfg, Richard Hammond lives there too. Top Gear stalking ahoy! And...Simon Pegg was born in the same hospital as me. Only nine years earlier.

Amazing what facebook teaches you.


May. 6th, 2009 09:10 pm
fightingthecage: (KS - Turned Smoking)

Ahahaha ohhhh, Kiefer.
fightingthecage: (DC Bond - Suit and Gun)

Does anyone have the theme for Quantum of Solace? The Jack White and Whatsherface one? And would you be willing to upload it for me if you have? I love that song stupid amounts and would be eternally grateful. :) Can't wait to buy the Blu-ray on Tuesday.

Life continues the way it does. Mowed the grass this morning as it was FUCKING BEAUTIFUL all day. It was ridiculously satisfying. Roll on summer; I love winter but this one has been loooooooong and I'm ready for some heat.

I only have a total of eight weeks of lessons left. Eleven really, but three of them are holidays. And then two weeks of exams which I'm OK with because I don't mind these exams. If I get D's or E's on every paper, I'll still get A's overall and that can never be a bad thing!

I feel very blah and tired and unmotivated for everything because I slept too long last night - by too long, I mean more than five hours. So I'm knackered and want to go to bed but if I sleep too much tonight I'll just feel like shit tomorrow as well. Bleurgh.

OK, I have nothing interesting to say. I will just go and click random things and pass some time.
fightingthecage: (Books)

I was going to catch up on 24 tonight but there is rugby on TV and so, I shall finish this meme instead. No doubt this will be loooonng...

From [ profile] shellebelle

I forgot to cut this first time around )

From [ profile] shadowofdoubt

Cuts are our friends )

I've got one more to do but this is long enough, I think. Plus, the rugby is finished so I'm going to go watch some 24.
fightingthecage: (Chrimbo  - Tree in Forest)

I love that I can use winter icons now, and even Christmas ones, and have it not be weird. Should really get a Halloween one though.

And man, y'know what? I fucking miss the days when I was on LJ all the time. This time of year brings it back - three years ago I was unemployed and couldn't afford to eat let alone have a life. So I used to play on LJ and live in Milliways and it was a really nice fun way to spend time. Now I have no time and I miss it. :(

Speaking of no time, I'm supposed to be writing three essays today but what with having no heating my hands are literally too cold to pick up a pen (how's that for an excuse? They're not too cold to type, obviously), so I am...killing time on LJ again, hurrah! Really should write essays though, one is coursework and one is for Oxford. The other is just homework, so, unimportant.

Last week I really wished I could go out for Halloween. Now I'm looking forward to spending the evening taking the piss out of the Babydaddy for turning 38 - mwhahaha, only two years until the nervous breakdown! He's fun to take the piss out of because he takes it well and then gives it back. ...shit, that reminds me, I have to wrap one of his presents still and get Evie to write her card for him. And make a birthday cake that he can't eat anyway but its the thought that counts, right? I can eat it, so thats alright. *makes list*

Ho hum. Hurry up electrician. Or don't, 'cos then I'll have to write essays. *twiddles thumbs*
fightingthecage: (Angus - Rocking It)

Anyone got a copy of Pendulum's Propane Nightmares they'd be willing to upload? So in love with that song. Eternal thanks will be yours!

I hope they play Hells Bells when Dean gets his ass dragged into Hell this week. Cliched and obvious, perhaps. BUT SO APT.

And a question for everyone because it occurs to me that I'm curious. Where do all your 'names' come from? I mean the ones that show up on your bio, not the title of your journal. Mine, for example, is 'Sweet talkin' lover of sin' and is a line from an AC/DC track. It describes me quite aptly. I was wondering about some of the ones I see every day. Susan, I think I recognise yours. Lexie, I am particularly curious about yours, I have to say. Anyway! I'd like to know but up to you if you want to tell me.

ETA: I'm so gutted I don't have Sky TV. I really want to watch Gladiators when it comes back on. *grumps*
fightingthecage: (MR - Party's Over)

Today has been one of those days of intense frustration. For the second day in a row, I have failed to take Evie swimming (is it obvious I'm really looking forward to this?). The reason today is that a TV Digibox thing was being delivered, 'some time between eight and four' as I was assured by the dude on the phone on Thursday evening. I've missed the delivery twice already so thought I'd better wait around for it today.

Did it arrive? Did it buggery. No phone call or anything. I've wasted an entire fucking day which is frustrating as I also need to go down to my workplace BECAUSE THEY HAVE NOT PAID ME YET AGAIN! I can't now because Evie's in bed. Stupid thing is, I don't even care about getting extra TV channels - I only want the damn box because the ariel in my house keeps crapping out for no apparent reason. I don't watch much TV but there are some things I don't want to miss, like football. Speaking of which, Man. Utd lost today when they could have sewn up the Premiership title for the year. Go guys. *sigh*

Ugh, I need to stop whinging. It hasn't been a bad day, just frustrating. I think I will write some stuff and get things ready for tomorrow because damnit, my child will experience a swimming pool this weekend if it kills me.

Unrelated fandom note: Harry from the Ghostfacers ep looks like a mini Robbie Williams. *squish* So cute.

ETA: cut for opening of DW spoilers )
fightingthecage: (Default)

Hurrah! An entire day where I didn't lock my keys in the car or lose any money or anything. Awesome!

There have been some big recent lj things, right? The Open Source Tits thing for one (sorry y'all, I can't stand the word 'boobies'...or 'breasts' for that matter) and all I have to say on it is...well, if the intentions of the original participants were as pure as the poster said, then fine. Didn't seem like anyone was hurt. Trying to take it further and bigger and make badges and whatnot? Bad bad idea. I wouldn't let anyone touch me like that, simply because I don't trust anyone enough to be really sure their intentions are as simple as that guy said they were. I would be suspicious of what was really going on in their head. And anyway, I don't like being touched by people I don't know...and lots that I do know, now I come to think of it.

Anyway. I had a point. Yes. Taking the 'project' bigger will undoubtedly end up with people getting slapped in the face/arrested/people getting drunk and taking it too far/someone saying it's OK to start off with and then changing their minds and becoming uncomfortable and then getting upset and/or sueing...y'know what I mean? Fine, these people had an evening where everything was simple and non-weird. Good for them. But they really need to leave it there, if only so they can look back on it in years to come and remember it fondly, as opposed to the giant ball of hurt/lawsuits it threatens to become.

In other lj stuff, [ profile] birdseyeview linked to this this morning. And seriously, what? I'm usually laid back about bad literature etc and indeed, I started reading that and just laughing. But by the end of it I was feeling pretty damn sick if I'm honest. The fact that the author of these books shows up on page three of the comments and basically admits that his hero is disgusting (but still a hero!) and the books are crap, almost makes it worse really. Because if you know your own work is that bad and has that much potential to inflict harm/be triggering for a lot of people, why fucking write it?

Anyone who has triggering issues with talk of rape or just plain gets rageful at disgusting mysoginy (spelled wrong, right?), I would advise you skip that link. It is fictional terrible behaviour but that doesn't actually make it much better. It is also just terrible terrible writing (the excerpts from the books themselves prove that, the review of it by the poster is very very good, and entertaining) and worse than almost any bad!fic I've come across and...well, if you want to read and die with laughter/horror, go ahead and click. But be warned at the same time.

SPN tonight, right? I am not excited because I know the format this ep is going to take and I fear I will be annoyed by it. Also, I love the show but it doesn't have me on tenterhooks quite yet - this is probably because I've only just got into it though and haven't been waiting for three months or whatever for a new ep. It's all new to me! I'm sure I will be gutted at the end of the season.

In life-related Evie has another tooth coming, I am taking her swimming tomorrow for the first time, it has finally clicked into my head that the Babydaddy resembles Cary Grant more than Jose Mourinho (bonus either way in my book), I have an timed-essay exam on Tuesday that I have done no prep for yet because it bores me and I've skipped three out of four lessons this week anyway. Hmm. V. bad.
fightingthecage: (Jack's Complete Lack of Surprise)

Ugh. The baby did her normal thing of waking up at 05:15 (thank you, darling) and although I tried to give her toys to occupy her in her crib while I went back to sleep, she wasn't having it. So I dragged myself up, got dressed, made coffee and she promptly fell asleep on the sofa for the next two hours.

THEN! I was all 'cool, beautiful day, I will take her to the supermarket and we will do a lesiurly shop, come back, have some lunch, drop her off at nursey at 13:00 and then go to the gym,' etc. Which was going swimmingly until I remembered that it is Tuesday and she goes to nursery at noon on Tuesday. Cue frantic grabbing of Stuff, mad drive to the supermarket, me forgetting most of what I went in for, Evie adding insult to injury by falling asleep again in the car on the way back...she was only ten minutes late, thankfully.

THEN! I actually remembered the money I would need to top up this weird pre-paid Visa thing I have. It's my first time using it and I want to enter the ballot for the 2009 London Marathon, which could close at any moment. So I have the right money. I come home. I want to check the instructions one more time before going to the shop to top up the card...and then notice that it only tops up in denominations of £10, and I only have £25 on me. BAH! So now...I have to go and get another £10...or do what I should have done originally and borrow my mother's credit card. Of course, she wasn't in when I called so I will have to try her later and the ballot will probably be closed by then.

And a spam message about someones huge rod has just broken gmail. What.

So now it is now. One wonders what else I can mess up today. Ho hum. It's gorgeous out anyway so nothing seems as bad. 15 degrees! Practically a heatwave!
fightingthecage: (Jack's Complete Lack of Surprise)

This week has been going pretty well, which is nice as the weekend was an utter nightmare. Not Evie's fault that her mouth hurts obviously, but doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Here's hoping the next nineteen teeth won't be so difficult.

Was supposed to be going to Scotland today but Ex-Housemate Jen had to postpone last night. Not really a problem apart from the fact that I was looking forward to it. At least this way I get to go to the gym and have some spare cash (which I have already spent on news toys for the baby) and also do my bloody homework. I had sworn to myself tht I'd do it all the first weekend of the holiday - and I did start it - but haven't touched it since then. Fairly typical then.

Er...I had stuff to say. Can't remember any of it. A week until new SPN? That's pretty cool, right?
fightingthecage: (DC Bond - Suit and Gun)

Omg, the news is about to do a segment on Rick Astley and the rickrolling phenomenon. Kill me now. I hate that song with a fiery passion (it was the first song I ever bought and I played it so much I now can't bear it. I have avoided it for twenty years.)

fightingthecage: (SPN - Closeup Dean)

OK, last night was fucked up. You know when all you want is an early night and then you get it and then can't sleep? This was one of those - and then add the scaryass Supernatural nightmare (Sam was the actual Antichrist, complete with cartoon red eyes and painted-on black pupils who wreaked havoc like whoa and then Dean thwarted him (to my immense relief) by setting fire to the top set of a pair of dentures that we had unearthed and then I was really pissed off because everyone was all over Sam being back to normal and no one cared that Dean had saved the day) that had me awake two hours after dozing off...and then the baby woke up for food and wouldn't go back to sleep for ages and the dreams shifted into something completely random that I can't remember now. I do know waking up feeling like I hadn't been to sleep at all and I hate that.

Anyway! (Oh also, I had been sleeping with Dean and then some other chick wanted to muscle in which also pissed me off). I am watching Smallville because it's on and Clark just totally injured some football player by tackling him. Yeah, like he couldn't imagine that that might happen? Whatever, this is only the second ep I've seen and it seems OK. Young!Jensen is hot!

I finished watching S2 of Heroes a couple of days ago. I liked it! Possibly even better than S1 actually. The thing that gets me about Heroes is that a) the writing is often dead clunky - when Peter says things like 'what's going to become of me?' I just have to roll my eyes because who the fuck talks like that? - and b) it's sometimes hard to keep up with who has met who and who knows about others' powers...this might just be because it's ages since I've seen S1 and can't remember though. But overall, I like it. I want to love it but can't quite get there. Some things:

a) Peter with short hair is hot. Thank God he cut that floppyass mess.
b) I had hoped Mohinder might ditch the mullet altogether but it was creeping back there towards the end. He annoys me.
c) I hated Elle at first. I can't stand childish touchy-feely little bints, even though she had justification for her lack of social skills. In the end though, I just felt really sorry for her.
d) Noah FTW! He's awesome. I still like Clare a lot too. And West is cute, if a little annoying at first.
e) Much love goes out to Hiro, of course, and Nathan. And Adam/Tensei - so cool! And yay to Sylar being back to his normal self! Should set up for an interesting S3.

In other fandom news, I have managed to recover the SPN fic I was writing, so hurrah.

And in the news, thank goodness that the Diana inquest is over and came back with a sensible verdict. Now it might actually get off the news, something for which I will be eternally grateful for.

Life = same old. Some thing will just be a continuous stress until I get them sorted out. Apart from that, I am on holiday from college and getting to spend loads of time in the gym - which is starting to be a bit of a problem actually, as I go nuts if I can't go. Still, no biggie.

...what is up with Clark's hair, honestly? Wow.
fightingthecage: (Fence No)

I think I mentioned some time ago that I was going to be going to Ireland this holiday, obstensibly to introduce Evie to her grandfather. I emailed him about it...oh, a month ago? No reply. After waiting two weeks, mother and I decided not to bother going because there was no point trekking over with a six month old baby if I couldn't take her to meet my dad. In the meantime, I'm getting a bit worried - he's not in the best of health and hasn't been for years and it's only recently he's started ignoring emails and birthdays. I wondered if perhaps his health had taken a turn for the worse because I know he usually checks his email every evening and I couldn't really think of a good reason why he would ignore me like that.

I suppose I should have known better by now. I remembered yesterday that my sister told me he was on Facebook, so I looked him up and added him as a friend. This evening? He added me right back. So basically, he does still check his mail and is just flat-out ignoring my request to see him. I don't know why I'm surprised by it; he's shown many times over the years that he doesn't really give a shit about seeing his kids. That obviously is stretching to his granddaughter as well (but he's fine with spending his retirement looking after - and being a grandfather to - his stepson's boy) - he's quite conservative and there's a good chance he doesn't really approve of the circumstances in which she was born. But then, he doesn't really know the circumstances, as he hasn't asked, so what the fuck?

I guess this is just one more reason to fuck him off forever. Unfortunately, I can't really do that.

In other news, I have a new DVD player. It is cheap as hell but still looks cool and works fine so yay! It was a debacle actually trying to buy it as I have discovered the staff at this particular store are utterly incompetent but whatever. And I have cleaned and am about to have a delicious dinner so all is well.
fightingthecage: (B&W - Http)

I want to buy DVD's and so, my DVD player refuses to work. FAIL!

...I'm so bidding on a new DVD recorder right now. Damn you, Ebay.

Other than that, EXTREMELY PRODUCTIVE DAY! I won't bore y'all with the details but I have lots of food in the house, things are much tidier and...yeah. It took all day but that's what happens when you leave boxes unorganised for a full year.

fightingthecage: (London - the Eye)

Randomly, I suddenly have a bunch of extra money. Hurrah! I am going to buy food (omg, so much food) and baby stuff and some DVD's. I'm torn between American Gangster, 3:10 to Yuma, Michael Clayton or Rendition. Can anyone recommend? Or are they all worth looking at?

ETA: I should point out that Michael Clayton is the automatic favourite because of George Clooney (obviously) but American Gangster and 3:10 to Yuma have Russell Crowe. Not as hot as George but there's two of him! So, I am torn.
fightingthecage: (B&W - Sleeping Man)
  • The missing beat in the music at the start of the BBC news really does my head in. What is the point of it?
  • I totally love the way Prince Harry has been fighting out in Afghanistan since Christmas and the whole British media agreed to keep quiet about it. Bless 'em! It is totally reminiscent of a Tom Clancy novel. The Hunt for Red October, if I remember correctly. I forsee him being yanked out of there within the week now its leaked though.
  • I spoke to my mother this evening - she asked me to ask Steve if she could meet him next week when she's up here with my sister. AHAHAHANO. I mean, I'll ask him because I said I would but I'll be relieved when he says no.
  • Hee! Harry is on the news, taking the piss out of himself for being ginger. *love* And swearing rather a lot, which is funny to hear. I bet the Beeb wouldn't broadcast a random person saying 'shit'. But he's royal so he's Special. And I love this guy. He always seems as normal as anyone in his situation can be.
  • I am loving the Gene/Alex hints in Ashes to Ashes. They so obviously fancy each other. I imagine nothing will happen though and she'll go back to Molly and there'll be lots of long lingering looks at each other etc. I wonder if she'll go and see him when she's back in her own time or if he'll still be around or whatever.
  • There was other stuff I wnated to say but I can't remember what they were because I'm too tired. Ugh.
fightingthecage: (HP - Hagrid)

GIP. Because it just made me spit tea all over the place when I saw it.

Life in brief as of now -

My glucose tolerance is perfectly normal so I do not have gestational diabetes. Which is nice. Am still anaemic though.

I am made of squee because I've just bought Seasons 1-5 of Queer as Folk (US version) on DVD. Got it way cheap on American ebay. Gotta love the exchange rate!

I can't believe its only 8 days until Hallows and I can hardly bear the wait. Its so wrong to be this excited over a book but I don't care! I love it! Am very much looking forward to seeing the movie sometime next week as it sounds like its pretty good. Probably Tuesday.

Um. Its raining. Again. This summer = made of suck. Which makes it similar to every other British summer, now I come to think of it.

Spoke to ex-Housemate Jen yesterday and got all melty over the baby noise emitting from her three week old, Baby Sam. She made me promise that if Scribble is born on October 2nd - the day before its officially due - I must name it Jennifer as that's her birthday. Even if its a boy. I agreed, because really, it makes life so much simpler. And what boy wouldn't want to be called Jennifer anyway?

Ziggy from Big Brother is exactly like an ex-friend of mine. Not in looks unfortunately, but in mannerisms and the like. Its quite scary and now I've realised this, I automatically can't stand him. I can't stand most of the BB people this year actually but that's OK because hurling abuse at the TV is what BB is all about. There would be utterly no point in watching it otherwise.

Oh, and I also finally bought S4 and 5 of 24 on DVD too. I hadn't been able to afford them before but got them on sale. My maternity leave is gonna rock with all this awesome stuff to watch. Yay!


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